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[Sep. 29th, 2007|08:28 pm] |
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there are definate highs and lows of college life. |
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[Jul. 24th, 2007|12:05 am] |
Well. I cried.
to J.K. Rowling, thank you. Thank you for creating a series of books that ultimately turned an entire generation onto reading. Thank you for creating the last and most recent installment so entirely fulfilling and spellbinding that I was drawn to tears. Thank you for making me remember my childhood, and how I've grown up with Harry Potter. Thank you for probably the best farewell to adolescence I have seen(er.. read).
also, thank you for not killing my favorite character. :) |
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[Jun. 14th, 2007|07:36 pm] |
I am blahhhed out.
what am I going to do with myself for three and a half months? |
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[Jun. 1st, 2007|03:57 pm] |
I am now an FHS graduate.
and I can cross kissing a police officer and witnessing some male genitals popping out from underneath a dress, off my to do list. haha Sober grad was amaaazinggg.. I'm so tired. |
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[Mar. 15th, 2007|11:44 pm] |
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I really need to start getting some sleep. |
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[Feb. 17th, 2007|11:01 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | kathy | ] |
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Yesterday, after getting home from froyo with kathy, around 5:30 I laid down on my bed intending to take a nap... I didn't end up waking up until when my alarm clock went of this morning. At 7 haha..
so normally I wouldn't be at home right now. I'd be at work. But I sliced my thumb REALLY badly today about an hour ago.. so he let me go home. I now have about eight layers of gauze around my thumb and it is throbbing INSANELY. I want to chop it off completely. agghh.. My mom's gonna look at it in like an hour and depending on how bad it is we might end up going to the Emergency room... which means... we'll be sitting there for about 4 hours before actually being helped. Oy.
what a great day so far. pfft.
IT HURTS. |
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[Feb. 15th, 2007|08:33 pm] |
I just took a five hour nap.
....sick?
it was weird though because i woke up, and my bedroom was all dark and it freaked me out cus I coudln't figure out what time it was. then I opened my bedroom door.. and the house is entirely dark. I dont know where my mom is.. she might be in her room but I'm afraid to go in there and find out that she is in bed with Gene... dknaoirdj
I saw jessy today though, and it made my day. I miss her. |
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| no more sweet melodies or angry bangers... |
[Jan. 11th, 2007|06:26 pm] |
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My iPod got stolen yesterday. It really pisses me off.
...I'm afraid to tell my mom, to have her find some way to tell me that it was my fault that it got stolen. ugh.
I'm getting kind of frightened of our relationship. My mom and mine. She's pushing me to the edge. She's making me want to get into trouble. And I'm not a kid who gets into trouble. |
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[Jan. 9th, 2007|10:02 pm] |
well, today was a definate improvement from yesterday. Yesterday I ended up going weeping all over the place(thank you ketch) and driving around folsom. When BAM! I ran into Alex and we had a nice little conversation on the isde of the road. He was a little confused. School was not so fun today, but then.. hohoho after school. :)
Kara, Elen and I decided to go to Froyo after school and I get there after they did. They run up and go "MARIANNE!! WE JUST SAW ROD STEWART GO INTO ERNIE'S!!!!(the breakfast place across the parking lot)" So I'm like... "wha??" We go in and purchase some froyo.. then what do you know, Mr. Rod Stewart steps out of Ernies and into the parking lot. We're sitting inside Yogurt Delight and Kara and I decide that we're going to go and ask him to make sure. So we walk out there and Kara goes "Are you Rod Stewart?" and he says "No, I'm his twin." and I IMMEDIATELY thought he was joking, so I was convinced it really was him. Then the lady with him goes "yeah he gets that a lot." So Kara, Elen and I go back inside, inform everyone in there that we don't think its actually him, but we weren't completely sure. we see him go into the salon next door and once he comes out, we go in. I ask if they knew if he really was Rod Stewart, and one lady goes "Oh, no he's my neighbor. His name is Roland and he is a stand in for Rod."
...yeah. hahahaha
Then, we go back into Yogurt Delight and we're discussing all sorts of different things, then what do you know, Ms Kathleen walks right in and holy crap we got crazy fantasizing and planning our House party. muahahaha..
So then it was like 5:20 and I realized that I had to be at my Bass lesson at 6 but I had to give Kara a ride home... so that was a task. Then.. yadada.. bass lesson, etc.
..nothing else really exciting happened that afternoon, but a new House was wonderful. The ending was ...very exciting to me. |
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[Jan. 4th, 2007|12:42 am] |
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It never seems to be about want. No.
Whether you want it or not, things just.. happen.
Today was fun though. |
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[Dec. 28th, 2006|07:44 pm] |
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So.. about an hour ago, power was restored.
It was out for nearly three days.
Think about that for a few minutes. Refridgerator... no longer cold. All the food in it, no longer edible. Stove doesn't work.. no way to cook anything. Television, no workie. Computer..no workie. When it gets dark at freaking 4:30 now, you have to rely on stupid too-flourescent lights to do stuff. Makes you feel like you're up in the middle of the night when its maybe, 7:00. crazy. Myspace.. no myspace. No microwave. No music. Bleak, quiet..nothingness.
I'm making it sound like I'm stuck out in the middle of nowhere with absolutely nothing. Not true. I spent most of yesterday shopping with my stepmom. hah.. so I was actually doing stuff. Then I got really into Hugh Laurie's book "The Gun Seller." I initially t hought that I'd only bought it because of the author. teehee. but surprisingly, it is REALLY good. So.. my day has pretty much consisted of reading and taking my car over to the volvo guy. He's fixing pretty much everything that was wrong with it. huzzah!! This means, the cd player will be playing again (he told us that two lines of wire were touching and either they'd be blowing out fuses {which they were} or they'd catch my dashboard on fire. I'd say I'm pretty glad that they were blowing out fuses and not playing anything rather than burning up my car.. wow). Also the car will no longer shake when its being driven.. apparantly that wasn't supposed to happen, the dashboard lights won't flicker anymore, and the muffler will no longer make noises. whee!! and because its basically the god of volvo mechanics, I have nothing to worry about. yay!
and now.. I'm off to watch
Swingers and Mrs. Henderson Presents. with power!! |
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[Dec. 12th, 2006|04:25 pm] |
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I'm going to try.
I really am. I've been unreasonable. I'm accepting that.
But nothing explains the way she's been. I'm going to try.
...and I, like Kathy, can say only 5 more months.
...until change. I'm kind of scared. But I want it too.
I really like how I end up on livejournal instead of doing my MASSIVE gov project thats due on friday. My god. It is MASSIVE. |
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[Dec. 10th, 2006|07:28 pm] |
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I have kissed someone:
[x] on the cheek
[x] on the lips
[ ] on their hands or fingers
[x] in my room
[ ] in their room
[x, not on the lips... if that counts lol] of the same sex
[x] of the opposite sex
[ ] younger than me
[x] older than me
[ ] shorter than me
[x] taller than me
[ ] with jet black hair
[ ] with grey hair
[x] with blonde hair and blue eyes
[x] with brown hair
[ ] with flaming red hair
[x] with curly hair
[x] with straight hair
[ ]with dyed hair
[ ] with a shaved head
[ ] with longer hair than me (I’m a girl)/ shorter hair than me (I’m a guy)
[ ] with a lip ring
[ ] with a tongue ring
[ ] who I truly loved
[ ] who truly loved me
[ ] who was a terrible kisser
[x] who was a great kisser
[ ] who was drunk
[ ] while I was drunk
[probably...] who was high
[ ] while I was high
[ ] who I had just met
[ ] who was homosexual
[ ] who I didn’t really want to kiss
[x] in the morning
[x] right after waking up
[ ] just before bed
[x] late at night
[x] who was going out with someone else
[ ] who was going out with someone close to me
[ ] who was my good friend’s brother or sister
[ ] two people at the same time
[ ] right after I've kissed somebody else
[ahahah not technically..] who had been/is in jail
[ ] at school
[x] against a wall
[ ] in a graveyard
[ ] in a church
[x] in a pool, jacuzzi, or some type of water
[x] at a show/concert
[ ] at the beach/camping
[ ] in a tree
[x] on a dance floor
[ ] on a rollercoaster
[x] on a holiday
[x] on a dare
[x] on a boat
[ ] at a club
[x] in a car/taxi/bus
[x] while one of us was driving
[ ] on a plane
[ ] who was legally too young/old for me to have sex with
[x] who was/is my good friend
[x AHAHAHAHAHAHA] who was/is in a band
[x not technically lol] who has tattoos
[x] who is of a completely different race than me
[ ] in the rain
[ ] in another continent besides the one where I was born
[ ] with an accent
[ ] with an STD
[ ] at the circus/carnival
[XHEART!!!!!] with a missing body part
[x] at the movies
[ ] in a bathroom
[x] in the dark
[ ] on a roof top
[x] Eskimo style
[x] upside down in a way
[ ] whose name I didn’t know
[ ] who didn’t know my name
[x] who was wearing pink underwear
[x] who was/is a complete asshole
[x probably] who forgot about it
[ ] who thought I was a member of the opposite sex
[ ] who thought I was drunk when I wasn’t
[x] who broke my heart
[ ] whose heart I broke
[x] with a piece of clothing missing
[x] with a piece of my clothing missing
[ ] when talking on the phone
[x] while someone was watching
[x] under the stars
[ ] at a party
[ ] in the computer lab
[x] in the woods
[ ] who was cross-dressing
[x] at the park
[ ] in a shower
[x] who I regret
[x] who I don't regret
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[Dec. 6th, 2006|04:53 pm] |
It doesn't even feel like home anymore when he's here. I get home to the sight of that dreaded car in front of the house. Sigh, and walk inside. The door to her bedroom is closed and I can hear... murmurings? sex sounds? I don't even want to think about it. I grab the compy(the new one :)) and hide in the seclusion of my own room, watching a movie.. or whatnot. Usually til he leaves, or until I'm forced to socialize at dinner. ugh. If she says that he's coming with us to San Francisco tomorrow (for the grandparents 60th Wedding Anniversary, HOLY CRAP!!!), I might shoot somebody. Or myself. dear god.
I want a hug. and a good schnuggling. and a good cry. And mostly, to not feel so alone.
..I think I'll go watch Gosford Park now. |
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[Dec. 4th, 2006|04:33 pm] |
I am so fucking sick of it.
She is so fake. In my opinion, you don't need to like EVERYTHING that your boyfriend likes, it is okay to have your own interests.. my god. But no. She's completely trying to impress him, even though, I mean.. duh, if he's already your boyfriend you don't need to impress him more. He does like you for who you are. Don't try to change that by adding plasticity.
Just be yourself. My god. Its not that hard.
At this rate, soon they'll be gone. Lost in a spiral of lust, and nobody will ever see them again. Which really depresses me. ugh. :C
and then you count my mom disappearing as well. Her boyfriend is sucking her into the "I love you but not really, I just like to pretend I do" abyss. Life at home is shitty. |
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[Dec. 1st, 2006|07:01 pm] |
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| [ | music |
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I'm so mixed up right now. Today was frustrating. At least until that wonderful life talk with Chelsey.
Why is it that when I'm around a couple of newlyweds for a week, I suddenly realize who I want to be with for the rest of my life. (Yes, big words.) A thought that I'm sure wont happen.
See.. I tend to have these weird fantasies about my future. I'm really starting to get annoyed. They're usually things that will most likely never happen.
My car. OMG. fucking mechanics are incompetent.
One thing to look forward to though:
PRIMUS and GOGOL BORDELLO
 
IN TWO DAYS. *spazzes* |
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| waiting for tomorrow, tired of yesterday |
[Nov. 29th, 2006|05:18 pm] |
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| [ | music |
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Meh..
People need to quit being rediculous.
I need a haircut.
AND APPLICATIONS ARE DUE TOMORROW... BAHHHH |
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[Nov. 24th, 2006|12:41 pm] |
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Ever since I was.. what? eight..? I've heard them say that. "Some day Marianne, you'll bring some guy home for thanksgiving, or Christmas, and we'll get to tell them all these funny stories about you that will just embarrass you to no end."
But what if I never do bring somebody home with me?
I've been watching my step siblings, and their spouses in the last couple days and they just seem so happy together. And then all these insecurities pop up in my mind, that there must be something wrong with me. Nobody would ever want to come home for the holidays with me.
I think its a fear, of being alone.
I don't know why. I really don't want to seep into acting like my mom. erg.
I think I'm just insecure about these type of things.
But I can see the two of us, acting exactly like the two of them in a couple years. heh. Its funny.
(and now back to the college apps.) |
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[Nov. 20th, 2006|12:37 am] |
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It has been a thoroughly exhausting day.
I woke up this morning.. went to work. 8 AM. whee. With this job, I'll never be able to sleep in. heh. oh well. I'll always have evenings open. :) Saw Kathy's Grandma with Monica (yay). Ate my first solid piece of food in a week and a day!! Thats a big accomplishment. I was really afraid I was going to rip my stitches out.. but I ate a bagel, successfully, and then ran to the bathroom to rinse everything out of every little crevase. hah.
Got off at 2. Zoomed over and picked up Monet where we proceeded to our favorite destination. Froyo. We chatted... etc. etc.. and then, as always, went on a photo adventure. Livermore park, or should I say Kidneymore park, how we love you and your scenery. Eventually it started to get dark so we proceeded to her humble abode where we uploaded a good chunk of pictures. Talked to Andrew. :) My madre called.. dinner was ready.
Wemt home and Gene was there(yay. not.). ugh that man frustrates me. We had dinner and then my mom announced to me that Gene would be coming with us on the drive to redding tomorrow. Its not so much that he's coming that pisses me off, its that she didn't tell me, until the last minute, and this is exactly what we fought about last time. ugh. she's starting to really make me angry. She has totally changed..
I flipped out. Ended up going to Brian's house where I chilled with him, Brittany and Daniel. He gave me a root beer, his mom made cookies, we watched Les Claypool videos(OH GOD, DEC. 3rd!!!!), and contemplated life. Took a drive in the fog. Oh man. We went to Top of the World.. and looked out upon a sea of fog. We didn't feel like we were on the top of the world. We felt like we were in a Are You Afraid Of The Dark? episode. It was pretty freaking awesome. All in all, they made me feel better..
10:45 roles around.. time to go home...
and now I've spent an hour on Photoshop. So much for packing. sheesh.
I'm gonna have so much shit to do in the morning. ugh.
But a break from my mother, is more than overdue. |
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